Goals, Plans, and Wish Fulfillment Fantasies
Created in September 16, 2025A collection of personal goals, project plans, and aspirational notes from 2016 to 2023.
January 1, 2016
A Week's Reminders
A short list of reminders about upcoming tasks and events for the week:
Reminders (August 22, 2017)
Pray for Devotions on Thursday and Topic for Powerpoint (Non-Linear and Linear) Note down the schedules for basketball. It's raining so maybe there will be no training. Finish goals quick. Encourage, and be friendly (not flirty!) to others. Friday is an event held in New Life at 6 PM.
January 14, 2017
A Regimen of Faith and Practice
A checklist outlining my weekly goals for self-improvement, blending musical practice with religious devotion:
Weekly Goals
- [ ] Practice 2 hours piano/keyboard per week not including with kuya —. - [ ] Practice drums atleast 90 minutes per week. - [x] Wake up before 3 AM then PRAY. Stop only if God tells us so. - [x] Exercise atleast 4 times - [x] Help out in chores - [x] Practice atleast 30 minutes of guitar everyday - [x] Shower atleast 2 times daily. - [x] Do paces and finish atleast 2 PACEs - [x] Practice singing! Especially with tips, and atleast 2 hours a day.
February 20, 2017
Video Game Concept Brainstorm
A brainstorm of several video game concepts and their mechanics:
Castle Defence, Make farmer stronger. Finish the wiki. UDD A PURATE CUPTIN!!!
Bomb Voyage, Tank Cannon, has alot of health but has wak attacks. Invisiblity Cannon, goes invisible. Teleporting Cannon teleports somewhere every 30 sec. Super Cannon. Charges a big attack, has little health. Background, it shows trees and land and a big castle in thr middle.
AntiSpy, a game where you put different type of guards im different places to fight spies.
Add like different kinds of spies and guards, like stealth spy or sheild guard.
June 12, 2017
A Fervent and Ambitious Prayer
A comprehensive and ambitious list of prayer requests, covering my church's needs, my desire to master numerous talents for God, and the salvation of others:
Prayer Requests 1. Pray that the 'dark cloud' which hinders the church from growing will be stopped. (Especially this one before asking God for blessings: it's like filling water in a bucket with holes.) 2. Pray for Mom, leaders and people will stop being scared and stand up! Trust in God and Humility to be revived in the Church! 3. Pray that 'Prayer And Fasting Night' will be blessed and more people will come out wanting God even more! Saturday Youth and Sunday! 4. Pastor and his family to look at God and not their problems, same goes for the whole church! 5. Kuya —, future presidents and other leaders to be eager to share the Gospel and help fellow churchmates, and be humble servants, fervent in prayer: As Jesus was: not just directing and giving their opinions (wisdom coming from God). 6. The Youth (in the churches and especially the —) to be revived, awakened, and eager to do anything for the Lord in any circumstance. 7. Provision for equipment (Microphones, Guitars, Pianos, Digital/Electric Drums, Different kinds of drum sticks, ect.) in 'Praise and Worship' . Provision also for other things that will improve the church (Church Van, Aircon, Carpet, ect.) Provision for mixer, that we will buy what God tells us what to buy! 8. Pray that we'll have a proper sound technician (can be me) and be able to make the Praise and Worship sound balanced and beautiful! 9. That God will give us the opportunity to record music. As we get better and more members become part of the Praise and Worship Team. We can make a band and join competition to share the Gospel! Not for us, but for God! 10. Youth Concert to be an explosion of zeal (Not just emotion or feeling, but true submission and surrender to Him)! That youths from all around will come and encounter God, feel His presence, repent of their sins, and continually follow God. 11. Schools, Tuition Fees, and Enrollment will test our faith and that every person looking for a school will pray and ask God for His wisdom and will! That looking at the Tuition Fees won't stop them from going to the school God wanted them to go to. That God will provide for our tuition fees! God to be our Wisdom whatever we do! Remind us to ask help from God. That every Christian will be as the Light to all those around them, and help them remember that darkness cannot overcome Light. 12. For God to help me master guitar, master piano, master drums, master singing, master beatboxing, master rapping, master voice acting (narrator, announcer, ect.), master sound technician, master dancing, master acting, master leading, master asking God for help, master being in front of strangers, master also being in front of friends, master encouraging, master teaching, master listening, master obeying, master fast thinking, master creativity, master trusting in God, master volleyball and basketball (and other sports God presents me with), master sharing the Gospel (by applying "as a Jew to the Jews" strategy and more), and master preaching (but obviously all what I say to come from God) this year! Other talents that God hasn't revealed yet to me that I will master it and most importantly, use these all for God's glory! That people in the church will start using the talents that they know now, and the talents that God will reveal to them soon for His glory. To God be all the glory! Practice will be done, God only will be praised! 13. That every event/activity (Youth Concert, Daily Vacation Bible School, Evangelism, ect.) we hold will be done for God's glory, will be prayed for and will be done with God's best! 14. Every decision that is planned to be done will be prayed for, first! If God says no then no. If God says yes, then yes! 15. That we will start drawing near to God so that He draws near to us. 16. That every Christian will make hinself ready for any circumstance by walking with God (worshiping Him, praying, waiting on Him). 17. For the Praise and Worship Team to be deprived of pride, laziness, blaming, frustration, impatience, double-mindedness, fear (most especially of rejection), arrogance, and selfishness. That unity, humility, and encouragement to be all-around. That future members will have an easy time obeying God because the leaders are obeying God and praying for them. 18. For the spirit of drowsiness to be overcome through prayer and fasting! Self-condemnation, laziness, pride, lust, fame, hate, judging, dishonesty, doubt, and fear to be destroyed (even before having tempted any of the church) by the spoken Word! 19. The church to be so eager that when God tells them to share the Gospel to certain people, they will. The Youth to be God's servant(humble and obedient)-leaders(courageous, willing, eager, and ministers). 20 The youth to rise up that they will minister of God's goodness and what we should do to please God! God called me to help raise up Prophet-Warrior Youth! God to help me minister to the Youth and more that the kingdom of God is at hand. For God to help me speak fluently in tagalog, english and any other language that I need to speak when I preach and share the Gospel, and God to be with my mouth and every other ministers's, longing to serve God with eagerness! 21. Pray for people that is still not saved and might fall in sin then die in hell if we don't pray for God to encounter them, give them a chance, and help them confess. - kuya — - —, —'s — - cousins, nephews, uncles, and aunts - old classmates from — - elders in the church also lola — - Mommy's friends - our landlord and her family, Ms. — - —, ate —, Mommy, Daddy, —, and — - president Duterte - famous people including artista and just in facebook. - hopeless and depressed people. - people with pride. - The Church - People who wronged us! 22. Pray for specific people and activities God tells us to pray for. -—, for God to give her wisdom, strength, and for her to realize true happiness and acceptance comes from God. -—, for her to realize true happiness, satisfaction, and acceptance comes from God. Not relationships or anything else from this world. Except God's. - Kuya — —, feel God's presence more! - — —, to feel God's presence and for God's Courage to fill —. - Kuya — — —, Awake his soul, God's strength and God's wisdom to be seen in him. That he will rely on God more. - Ate — : Provision, God's protection to be in all family. - —, for the Holy Spirit to fill her and give her confidence for God's Name only to be praised :) - —, to realize that God is where he can truly find happiness, for him to encounter God. - The people that I'm teaching to learn quickly and have Christ-confidence. - — to be saved and feel God's presence., seeing that he wants to help so much (could it be the same as the — in —. —'s book?). - World Wide Peace for World Wide Evangelism - The vision I had at June 4, 2017 about the last days when it just started. Seeing all the things fulfilled in Revelation. Help us t be ready Lord! - United Worship, this June 27, for God to replace our bodies to healthy ones before the event. That God will speak to His people, and manifest Himself before His people. The Holy Spirit to flow freely through every heart throughout the whole day. - Sicknesses. For God to heal us, teach us, and help us. That you will use struggles like this to teach us. God always wants to heal us, we just need to meet His conditions. - For me to start doing things only if God allows me: such as posting something in fb, or using my phone. And for God to help me realize that this should not be for me, but for The King of kings and The Lord of lords! - That God will remind me to always ask Him for His strength, wisdom and blessings to flow in whatever I'm about to do (exercise, practice instruments, practice singing, do PACEs, speak to people). 23. For God to give me the same forgiving heart that Jesus had at the cross when he said, "Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do." Or Joseph when he said to his brothers, "But as for you, ye thought evil against me; but God meant it unto good, to bring to pass, as it is this day, to save much people alive." 24.. That God will find us faultless (pure in heart, as we don't base our zeal for Him on feeling or emotion, or a happy atmosphere) as we stand before God's Throne of Glory! We will let God use us to the fullest!
I pray these things will happen in Jesus' Name! Let worry and doubt be resisted by the prophet-warriors of God, talagang trusting God!
What age was Joseph when he was betrayed? 17. When I am 17, God will give me a test similar to what Joseph endured: • Temptation to 'laying with someone' But because I didn't want, I will be framed. Praying that I will not have to get framed and even better, be faithful and loyal enough that I don't need to be tested. I will wait on what God has to say. Continue in the faith! Go deeper in Him!
July 31, 2017
Blueprint for Recording and Ministry
A list of technical tips and project ideas for recording and sharing my music:
Ideas for music Tips 1. Most important and number 1 priority; PRAY for guidance, wisdom, strength, confidence, for God's glory only, voice from God, and instrument skills from God. (help in guitar, piano, beatbox, ect.) 2. Position it facing to your neck. (not the top) 3. Record in small room such as Kid's Room or —'s Room. 4. To get highest quality; Add Noise Removal, Compressor, Normalize and Record Separately (guitar, vocals, beatbox, ect.) PS. Record in Mom's laptop! Only record in daddy's if you're gonna use webcam.
Ideas Redo God is Able! Make God Of Justice! Make Amazing Grace (Broken Vessels) Ask God for the next songs. Teach — —, —, —, —, and — how to play guitar. Search how to read sus, 5, 7. ect. for guitar. Learn how to read tabs. Try to practice drums from time to time. Learn basic chords in piano. *
July 31, 2017
Goals for Spiritual and Musical Development
A checklist of my medium-term goals for spiritual, musical, and personal development:
Plans
- [ ] Learn how to play bass and treble in piano - [ ] Pray 21 hours per week for 1 month (4 weeks) - [ ] Learn how to play electric guitar - [ ] To have a better bass voice - [ ] To have a wide stretched vocal cord, to be able to sing high with effects. - [x] Learn how to time in drums - [x] Learn how to play bass guitar - [x] Break free from shame and start preaching, and be a leader - [x] Stop getting chicks.
August 9, 2017
Duties Across School, Home, and Church
An organized list of my responsibilities and reminders, categorized by different areas of my life: school, home, and church:
[School] --[[ • Friday is the last day for Honor Roll; recite Revelation 12. • There will be training for basketball. • You will be the speaker tomorrow.vv'v'vvvvvv • You need to be an example of Christlikeness to them. • You have a 10 pesos debt on —. • You have to seek God first before doing anything else. • Friday is when you will go to — —. • Compose a song about the Rapture for — —. --]] [Home]
• You have to finish your three paces. • You have to never do something that will waste your 555555555555555555555555time. • Pray fervently. • Do everything you can't do at school.
[Church] • You might be a Speaker for Youth Service on Saturday. • You need to have good rest, e warm up, and most importantly, prayer, before Praise and Worship Practice. • You can jam with —, —, and — on Sunday. •Don't waste your time on Sunday; God wants us to honor Him, and not long for pleasure. • Do the assignment the speakers tell us to do every SOL.
[All] You have to get a tenth of your money every day to sum it up together for tithes.
October 26, 2017
A Plan for Bimonthly Growth
A structured plan for learning a new skill every couple of months, with a reminder to pray for guidance:
2016 November - Basketball 2016 December - Website Development 2017 January - Sketching 2017 February - Badminton Doing all this while practicing music. Practice each for 2 months until the end of the year. DON'T FORGET TO PRAY ABOUT THIS!
November 7, 2018
An Inventory of Talents, Goals, and Faith
A self-assessment of my talents, goals, and spiritual priorities:
My talents?
1) Singing, 2) playing instruments such as guitar, piano, and drums; 3) Writing, and 4) Programing are my talents.
I wouldn't call it talent but I really want to 1) play basketball, 2) work out (basically getting stronger physically) 3) try acting and speech.
More important things I need to focus on: 4) read the Bible more, 5) have a consistent relationship with God, 6) stay sexually pure, 7) stay in God's leading, 8) do all things for God's glory, 9) stay aware and focused on what really matters.
Goals in life: 10) 3 and 4 in the last list, 11) be actice in posting youtube covers and originals on youtube, 12) join competitions (I doubted myself when I wrote this), 13) go to Bible school, 14) trust God's will in relationships, 15) preach the Gospel through my talents, 16) be the very best (I can ever be) in my talents, 17) be humble and set an example, 18) don't be self-absorbed, forgetting about others; 19) trust God's will in my academic education, 20) bless and inspire those who hear about God's goodness in me.
January 15, 2019
Game Mechanic and Unit Ideas
A list of specific gameplay mechanics and unit ideas for a game I'm developing:
Game Ideas
1. Balance "Bandit" if necessary.
2. Make Billboard GUI for Healthbar
3. Design new unit that can drain enemies' hp while damaging them slowly.
4. Make a unit that can apply an effect similar Grievous Wounds from LOL.
5. Spirit's projectiles will heal nearby allies from where it hits an enemy.
November 2019
What Do I Want
A wish fulfillment fantasy:
December 27, 2022
An Inventory of Creative and Technical Projects
An outline of my ambitious creative and technical projects across various fields like writing, music production, programming, and academic study:
Drawing (Life Drawing), Writing, Singing, Music Production, Violin, Guitar, Piano, Programming (Refer to bottom), Stuyding (Refer to bottom), Dancing, Filming,
Writing projects: 1. Play with the spectrum of vocabularity range (easy to read, medium, and verbose) 2. Main characters have to be great. Make them distinct from the get-go.
Music Production projects: 1. Phonk 2. Process and mix my singing, guitar, violin, ect.
Studying projects: 1. Read dissertations, research articles, and journals. (Either use scihub and libgen, pay 300$, study at a research university, or get a PHD and work at an institution.) 2. Read Florante at Laura and El Filibusterismo; Learn Deep Filipino. 3. Learn Japanese. (Refer to blogs, youtubers with 100 or so subscribers, ect.)
Programming projects: 4. Scrap Japanese blogs and turn them into videos 5. Automate videos (ffmpeg) from the editing, sound effects, and music. It transcribes from audio and gets the important words, searches related images, and shows it at the time when I say it. 6. Desktop Application. 7. Automated Chapter Posting (Scheduling) with the APIs of RoyalRoad and Wordpress or Patreon—No API for creating posts yet.
Notes: 8. Get copyright at https://www.ipophil.gov.ph/copyright/ for music and novel. Its costs 200 pesos only or something. 9. Learn how to use your left hand and toes.
October 31, 2023
The Enigma of the Polymath
A wish fulfillment fantasy:
"I met a very handsome man who's a medical doctor, has two PHDs, and is very well-read. He always has a happy friendly smile in his pictures, and he dresses in simple clothes in these pictures. Though, he dresses formally when going outdoors. He said he has read and understood all the textbooks in his house. He keeps hundreds of physical textbooks and over a thousand digital textbooks he said. He even engages in learning musical instruments including the violin, fingerstyle guitar, and cajón, singing, making songs of a blend of vocal and musical techniques from metal, rock, jazz, pop, and country, among others, on the spot with guitar and singing, music production, painting and drawing, fictional, autobiographical, and diaristic, and descriptive, technical, metaphorical, structured, and concise writing, dancing, eating relatively healthy, exercising, and coding, editing and publishing video content that express his in-depth written material more accessibly, daily and frequent impromptu self-assessment that engages him brain to address issues and regenerate myself as a structured 'dao' (Chinese word for "method"), archiving photos, videos, and every other file type in cloud storage for him to contextualize and analyze later as part of a strive to communicate aggressively, among others. His goal is that his writing reflects my comprehensively technical, cultural, and psychological, formal understanding of his activities and the complex topics he studies.
But his art expresses chaos, violence, and death. Though, he does in a way that adheres to technical prowess. He delves in many different art styles and isn't afraid to publish an eclectic portfolio of various styles. I wonder if he secretly is insane, but I don't mean formally insane. I mean, is he human? Isn't it weird that he's so adept at expressing emotions and complex situations in his art? Is it a high level of empathy, or is he not okay?
hmm... okay... I wonder if he secretly harbors dark thoughts about the world because of how he often represents complex emotional art, taking on first person, second person, third person, and very broad perspectives.
I listened to his music, and it's also very expressive, delving into black metal. So this is the reason I started wondering he was struggling mentally. Of course, his music is separated from his personal life and other activities online. I only found out because I carefully recognized his voice after he recommended the music to me.
He's already 50 years old, so I'm kind of in a hurry to study him before he starts to retire. Hmm... whatever. I'm probably the only one who has a chance to study him, since I'm practically nearest to the source. He has family members and friends, but they seem distant professionally. They may know him interpersonally, but they don't really understood his thought process behind his activities. They just understand him on an interpersonal level. I thought they would be keen to questions about the guy, but they gave really general answers. His family members are relatively more normal in terms of achievements, but I was hoping to see if they reaped the benefits of knowing such a person. But I didn't find out much. Why don't they recognize how important it is to document this person's life? Whatever. The only thing I care about is understanding the man, but honestly, people like him just are unrealistic. I don't want to lean too much into believing him to be that of divine origin. He's just a regular guy based on my informal conversations with him. He may not be Sigmund Freud in terms of publishing work that circulated widely as academically influential, but he looks well-to-do in terms of life experience and modals of communication. I forgot to mention that he doesn't allow me to read his autobiographical and diaristic works. I read his fiction books, and they are worth studying. I'm not yet done reading them. Why do people like this just separate themselves from their talent? He could show that he is capable of all of these activities and show their work as one cohesive entity, as all belonging to him as a singular impressively multifaceted individual. But he doesn't. I assume that he prefers to focus on his work rather than on himself as a personality. But he writes his autobiography anyway, so he does care about himself as a person. I guess he doesn't want to share it online anyway. Either way, I'll keep moving forward. The accounts that host his works even have different brand choices, so they all look like different people with very different personalities. Even the writing styles differ based on the account. I don't know what's wrong with this guy. He's interestingly integrated into the Internet for someone his age. I guess his coding experience and the fact that he grew up in an upperclass background in the earlier days of the Internet should explain this."