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Originally started on March 10, 2025



I thought Devil Number 4 crystalized romance web comics for me, with no other pure romance web comic really doing it for me. Accatau’s death in ELLC was the best part. Reading “discomfiture” in p. 52 Rommel the Desert Fox broke my immersion for some reason. ==Niko Geyer and Clay Gardner‘s Fantasy Realms.== Cycling through Alan Lee’s Calender 2007. Watched Molayemi and Sohani’s Cypress. Since Cathulhu, DamnPlotArmor’s been on a roll. finally read John D. Ward’s Steamboat Controversy. Just learned ELLC had a Russian translation in ranobes.com after searching the phone number on ch. 103. MacDougall’s Scrubland Archer was a treat! 

Larry MacDougall Cara Profile

Princess_Garnet favorite MC forums member. Played Nooooooo’s Zombie Tower and could not get past a certain level, probably broken. Scratch Acid’s She Said defined the band for me. Thought Red’s interview in Season 6 The Sketchbook Series was insightful. Peter Draws’ Saying Random Words for 1 Hour was hilarious and surprisingly soothing. thought the older adults in Supremacy Games were too “teenager-imagined” for me 08/15/2023. Looked around for table formatting for LitRPG, but just decided to default to normal, though Zogarth’s PH gives some insight into how it can be done. (By the way, Nevermore was not that bad. AINETH‘s concept album Gone is a nice palate cleanser. Loved Martin Siegel’s insight into 1960s Jew-Black relations. 

Saying Random Words for 1 HourZombie Tower 2 thumbnail (Roblox game)

My Dad Is Car was my introduction to noise. (Coolea has a cool video on it.) Love “genre-free” music like Khost. I was a pre–Season 2 Bug Player enjoyer. Zayto’s axtrmnt megamix defines breakcore for me. Beau Miles’ 43km hidden railway run video was so perfectly mysterious and telling of something vast just from the thumbnail. Haruo Teshima’s Silver Knights is a classic. 19 year old crossing the Pacific alone is defo a for-sleep video. X100T best cam. Still have Quotations from Marcos at home. Blair and Robertson’s Philippines history was enlightening. Was thinking of trying YOLO ROS before ChatGPT and AI art really took off. first listened to The Money Store on 08/21/2023 and did not think much of it, though I thought Exmilitary was fun. 

YOLO ROS: Real-Time Object Detection for ROSSilver KnightsCoolea's Japan's Insane Punk Scene videoaxtrmnt melodic breakcore megamix

Tried watching the channel “freeCAD for Architecture” for the house landscape even if it was in Indonesian when I was trying to learn freeCAD, only to give up after 20 or so videos, and I also liked “MangoJelly Solutions”, “Yorik van Havre”, “mathcodeprint”, “OffsetCAD”, and “4 Axis Printing” (who also made that Sanladerer response video) 08/21/23. 

Did tchoukball in high school and never really got to enjoy it because the team leader was not really the most charismatic. Loved GRhin’s breakdown of Unofficial Crusader Path Update 2.15. Loved the hanging bodies scene in Lord of the Mysteries. The Bricolage Grotesque showcase site does not appeal to me like it did in 2023. tried tal reverb 4 for a while, and then I realized the problem was just everything else (the fundamentals). only searched the meaning of “ama” in 8/20/23 after hearing it all my life. 

Taken on October 25, 2017, 10:58 AM | School of Tomorrow Phillipines, National Student Convention, in Roxas City (waiting for tchoukball game)Bricolage Grotesque showcase

Dylan Iwakuni, Sorensen, and A Glimpse Inside’s videos on journey were useful. Garut Turunan Kidul's Disertai video was perfect. GLOBESTORIES’s video on Kyrgyz nomads was a nice starter. Went through a One Piece nostalgia clip dive in August 2023. Loved Andrew’s Wizardly Reads in 2023. Loved Gamez4to’s Lumber Tycoon 2 videos in 2023. SCA Heraldry’s Occupational By-Names in the 1292 Tax Role of Paris was an interesting find. 

Occupational By-Names in the 1292 Tax Role of Paris

“all of a sudden, everything becomes alright...” is probably my favorite minecraft nostalgia video. Arici’s playlist “It was all just a bad dream” was a frequent visit of mine. Made Jekyll site for the first time in 8/9/2023. loved the jesse pinkman/spiderman x vacations videos. Loved Handy Manny as a kid and the flash game too. Got Behringer Uphoria UM2 on 08/07/23. 

It was all just a bad dream

Still remember reading “The fog obscures your vision. Zoom in to continue.” when I played Apoc back around 2012, 2013, and 2014. 

“The fog obscures your vision. Zoom in to continue.” 

Van Der Veer’s refusal epitomizes non-violence for me. Thomas More and David Goodman Croly really went to show just how impossible the abolition of slavery was, even in utopias and predictions. The aggressors warring today in Eastern Europe really are Colorado’s Jesse Goldwins. Yallop’s distinction between “reconstructed” and “fabricated” was a nice touch. Loved Schoenbaum’s introduction of fascism. While it is outdated, I enjoyed D. S. Kimball’s use of the term “handicraft.” Have yet to understand C. J. Krebs’ use of the term “‘dinosaur’ syndrome”. 

First 100 chapters of Zogarth’s PH for me were perfection. If I ever read more, I would have to appreciate these first 100 for years with streams of analysis. Was there when Maddie and Siwoo memes came to be in Caedrel’s stream and probably many others. So funny to see them pop up and recall when they first came to be. 

Liked Severance Season 1 start to end and thought it was perfect already. Watched Episode 1 of Season 2 and decided to end it on 1.

Read Dare to Fail, and thought it sounded a little too self-help guru who got rich off a pyramid of self-help.

Loved going through Japanese goo blogs back in April 2023. I think it started with Red Stone Online, where searching on Youtube got me to Into the Bag, which might have gotten me interested in goo blogs. Though it was likely separate, since there was probably one channel for Into the Bag and one for a Red Stone goo blog (sizuku-mo).

2022.12.7 Ibe Update Into the Bag

in 2024, visited しぐれうい irregularly, never really watching but just a few minutes every few weeks or months or so.

Modageddon and Don’t Mine at Night were among favorites. Had a Lain phase in May 2024 and a breakcore one in early 2023.

Was so into Cafe Cuties Gwen in 2022 for some reason. Steampunk probably in 2022.

4/1/2025 listening to a space-themed jazz playlist on Youtube, looking at '80s Japanese art (“JCA Annual 3”) on Flickr, reading a War and Peace on Gutenberg, navigating a AI-generated website titled “The Palimpsest Archive: Excavating Layers of Meaning in the Overlooked” downloaded as an HTML file, reading the Wikipedia article of Gregorio del Pilar, and exploring a web-based point-and-click pencil-art world in Neocities 

Space Jazz | Jazzy Beats | 1 Hour PlaylistJCA Annual 3 | FlickrWar and Peace by Leo TolstoyThe Palimpsest ArchiveGregorio del Pilari-land

I read Eleanor and Franklin by Joseph P. Lash, The Fixer by Bernard Malamud, The Agony and the Ecstasy by Irving Stone, Colours of the Mountain by Da Chen, Hitler’s Social Revolution: Class and Status in Nazi Germany 1933-1939 by David Schoenbaum, Principles of Surgery (4th ed.), Kolb and Brodie’s Modern Clinical Psychiatry (10th ed.), The Romanovs: The Final Chapter by Robert K. Massie, On Civil Disobedience and Non-Violence by Leo Tolstoy, My Name Is Red by Orhan Pamuk, Red Sparrow by Jason Matthews, She Who Remembers by Linda Lay Shuler, The Sound and the Fury by William Faulkner, Rommel: The Desert Fox by Desmond Young, Amen: The Diary of Rabbi Martin Siegel edited by Mel Siegler, Foreign Affairs by Alison Lurie, Fall on Your Knees by Ann-Marie Macdonald, and All the King’s Men by Robert Penn Warren, to name a few.

4/14/2025 Melonland Forums, nostalgic Minecraft videos, grinding in 2012 Roblox RPG (The Lost Souls RPG), DanTDM's tomadachi life, Transformers: Generation 1, Instalok, archiving Youtube videos (metadata.yaml, description.txt, transcript.txt, analysis.md, and thumbnail.jpg), creating chapter-by-chapter detailed contextual plot outlines and analyzing characters and their citizen record of novels, Haikyuu!! Season 4, Black Mirror Season 6, Buying Ninja Mask of Shadows with saved-up tix (which one got an amount of by logging in everyday), all the rage with old Roblox packages, especially the robot ones like Mr. Robot, the physics sounds, the smooth flat textureless surface of grass in old Roblox, the focus on just having everything be physics in old Roblox like thrown projectiles and such (as opposed to them now having a much more predetermined path), the use of blood parts upon damage or kill of NPC or player in Roblox, the decal using a flat image of real-life or realistic lava being used on the part to indicate killing part, the use of toilets and hidden parts that one steps on to teleport to different locations (like horror and hide and seek games), Roblox UFO/Teleporter, Incredibots 2 UFO

Melonland ForumsTaken on April 28, 2025 | The Lost Souls RPG by darkness999999 |  I'm Samuel9yr, level 48430, in the leaderboard in the image. the use of blood parts upon damage or kill of NPC or player in Robloxsmooth flat textureless surface of grass in old Roblox, not always textureless, can be studdedLava decals for obbies

4/15/2025 Rituals (come out higher), bolt-action rifle culture, physics, narratives, backstory, 'broader world' beyond Roblox physics game, Incredibots combining physics and narrative with replays, 

Rituals (come out higher)bolt-action rifle cultureRoblox physics gameFlashpoint, Incredibots 2, Replay18.ibre
4/16/2025 to 6/6/2025

cece's short but potent help, Jerylie incidents, ourworldofpixels.com, MC Forums user "Princess_Garnet" world project and video scroll of forum thread, my response to u/witcheslot, VCBW (Vast Contained Bubble World), the 405th Chapter Strategy, Gerard, Sapper, Delilah, NOaA (Natural Order of Abuse), PYP (Protect Your Process), 

cecePrincess_Garnetpixel art from ourworldofpixels.com

The Everyday Self, Migi & Dali (April 16), Naruto binge-watch (4/27 to 5/29, season 1 ep. 3 to ep. 109—water tank scene), Kuroko no Basket (3/26 to 3/31), Haikyu!! (4/1 to 4/12, 4/19), and Ranking of Kings (4/21 to 4/24—loved all openings, but particularly the second one)—lvl 66,000 TLSRPG, series of new Starbucks writing spree, ceo jumpstyle/roblox aesthetic discovered, continuing ambient videos, still following Los Ratones into their second NLC finals against Nord (Lucian gets Nautilus R and drags R into two teammates into Azir ult into Kled-Naut finish) and now ongoing EU Masters, the Pitt clips, sudden appreciation of Aidin Robbins videos even after long awareness of them, setting boundaries on Reddit, 

The Forest at the Bottom of the World by Aidin RobbinsNLC Finals (last game, final fight): Los Ratones vs. NORDSecond opening of Ranking of KingsNaruto Water Tank scene (episode 108)The Lost Souls RPG: level 64765, May 31, 2025

45-day write-conventional project with 3 stories and 30,000 words in total from 4/22/2025 to 6/5/2025, re-read Fire Punch in its entirety on the road in Grab car when I was heading to Starbucks in the third visit of that visiting series writing spree, read Clive Cussler and Dirk Cussler's Arctic Drift and Bernard Malamud's the Fixer during the first Starbucks visit (May 23) which lasted 3 hours only at the cafe (also listened to phonk and Bear McCreary's God of War Ragnarök there) and during which I walked a lot and was nauseous and very sweaty during bus ride home, second visit (May 28) occurred at late evening and involved walking home with two younger brothers and mother down familiar sidewalk after bus ride and where I was already sleepy enougn not to want to talk and involved a Grab, which preceded the bus at the terminal, which she negotiated for—third visit (May 30) went lasted from around 10:20 AM (food supposed to be taken at 11:20 AM, an hour later) to a little over 7:30 PM, got two biggest ice-blended dark mocha coffee and did big entire revision fix of Delilah, fourth visit is tomorrow (6/7/2025), 

An altered photo taken on the third Starbucks visit where I did a big revision of the Delilah story.45-day write-conventional project with 3 stories and 30,000 words in total from 4/22/2025 to 6/5/2025Fire Punch ending panelClive Cussler and Dirk Cussler's Arctic Drift

sudden familial altercation (May 31) resulting in proclamation of "you do not see me," with the day afterwards being one of sudden 6–10:30 (?) morning exercise after many, many months of desk sedentary sitting and writing, which led to current double water container in room with one for drinking and one for working out days later, and already initiating re-entry into regular workout as of June 6—checking entire conversations with former friends and having them analyzed, ghost of instantkingdom forums fiction author user named "Zombie" from 20 years ago, fiction story predictability guess-analyzer and its consequences, 405th chapter strategy and engineering reader trauma, millennial soundtracks like Simple Plan, comparing between Sapper and SagaScribe's Dungeons & Deliveries, reminiscing with Red Stone Online, AdventureQuest, Dragon Nest, Epic Seven (the mobile game), Overlord (the light novel/anime/manga), Dungeons and Dragons Online, Titan Quest, Torchlight 2, POE, and Warcraft 3—

Story by Zombie from 20 years ago in Instant Kingdom Forum.Dungeons and Deliveries by Royalroad author SagaScribe

fucked up with L, forgot she said no already for years, dislike of ChatGPT-generated devotionals, titling of entries, inclusion of the new front, including and titling Gmail Stories, Wattpad Writings, full list of Google Docs documents, Color Notes, Pure Writer notes, and Google Keep notes—autobiography voluming proposal, missing personal website image files of April 17, including rambling.jpg, but then realized they were in index directory rather than in folder—immersed creator vs. curators' algorithim, answer all questions and concerns populating the web?, TFOB's essence as depicted by its logo and banner, classic black Adidas Roblox shirt returned in April 18 (later removed by Roblox for copyright on May 7), perceived youngest brother's dependence (April 18), One piece potent storytelling despite old early animation, 

Adidas shirtOne Piece, 1st episode: "potent storytelling despite old early animation"

13,000 words in one day, continuing experiential saturation, task board/quest board (RabbitTale), generate speech ("That's not how it works. People die."), bait and switch Roblox games (CnNation, redcarkyle123, who made Egg Mart), my detached reaction to Gura's goodbye (5 years), continued two-month interest in Trap Royalty song (Oliver and Rex theme song), long disappeared interest in The Slappable Jerk, TLSRPG speedrun video AI analysis for proposal to translate game to story, declined 3-month-long interest in Fight Class 3 phonk edits, Jan. 21 - 25 Fight Class 3 read (confirmed through Google My Activity), temporary interest in "Everything in Its Right Place", rewatched Astra Lost in Space (April 19), discovered that the items in my Roblox game "Build and Fight" were broken, The Ones Within rediscovery (it was unlisted in Muse Asia), watched first Nemesis YT stream (April 24), renewed interest in Eminem's Kamikaze album, first direct video-clicked listening of Black Sabbath's Iron Man, Windows start-up sounds, Civ VII Jose, continued reading of William Bartram's Travels Through North & South Carolina, Georgia... on phone, 

Taskboard/questboard (BunnyTale): A Roblox gameredcarkyle123's most popular game: Egg Martsoccerman611's speedrun in The Lost Souls RPGBuild And Fight2hakkk's Fight Class 3

interest in Webtoon Ultimate Shut-in, frequent exposure to Chess videos on Youtube Shorts, League of Legends Here, Tomorrow Song Cinematic on premiered while reading in Roblox game Library of Aletheia, paused interest in Neocities, sudden interest in and watching of ManlyBadassHero since April 15 to present, crucial emotional listening of Lil Wayne's Let It All Work Out and Kendrick Lamar's Money Trees on May 31, dismissal of jeremyjankles, Love, Death, and Robots Volume 4 on May 19, discovered on May 27 that the Youtube video "Violet Evergarden || Fight" was deleted with its original account and reuploaded, translating blacksmith video to text after over 2 years due to Delilah scene (which became interlude during the big revision during 2nd visit of Starbucks), 

Love, Death, and Robots, Volume 4, 4th EpisodeUltimate Shut-inBlacksmith video for writing the blacksmith interlude scene in Delilah story.

watched The Happyhills Homicide gameplay on May 25 and BrokenLore: DON'T WATCH on May 24, the latter of which kickstarted my interest in ManlyBadassHero, discovered Youtube playlist "in the abyss of war | a hardstyle" which led me to Roblox/FNAF Chica jumpstyle, brief interest in League of Legends old forums due to previous interest in the already-gone MSPA Forums, grabbed Delilah's "Standing Stone" excerpt from Reuben Gold Thwaites's Early western travels, 1748-1846 (search "Standing Stone" in the PDF), renewed appreciation of lonerhermitneet.neocities.org and yokseekan.btw.so, 

The Happyhills HomicideBrokenLore: Don't WatchJumpstyle Mix with Chica from Five Nights at Freddy'sscreenshot of League of Legends old forums"Standing Stone" excerpt from Reuben Gold Thwaites's Early western travels, 1748-1846lonerhermitneet.neocities.org

curiosity at people's admiration of PopStep in the recently released My Hero Academia: Vigilantes anime (given that I read the manga along with Chainsaw Man's years ago in Viz Media), renewed interest in 8 Hours of Dark Ambient from Iron Cthulhu Apocalypse Youtube video since 2019, May 17 interest in the monocolor pfp and banner of @ITISATUNA, who creates curated mixes with moody images, particularly the By The Sea video—took webpage screenshot of all Facebook profile pictures—renewed very brief second-wind interest in Platform Racing 2 after I tried getting back my account many months ago, brief re-browsing of Hiroshi Yamazoe's channel (to whom I have been long subscribed), 

GIF of the character "Pop☆Step" from the opening of My Hero Academia: Vigilantes@ITISATUNA8 Hours of Dark Ambient from Iron Cthulhu Apocalypse (original music, not a curated mix)

intense flash of interest in Pluto Projector and One Piece Kuma-teleporting-scene edit of it, discovered Digital Woman's DOGCORE album, long-gone interest in Martijn Doolaard, checking artemis Vtuber again (May 11), interest in John Walker discourse in beginning of May, caught wind of "Amiaryllis Bloo" hoax back around March 8 and even watched her right before it was revealed, reviewing of old media: logdotzip puzzle maps, wiffi nijisanji kr, heroes' legacy roblox before:2016, forsaken sword legacies RPG 2, rogueblade, pewdiepie tuber simulator, claw vs reigen, risk of rain 2, slime rancher 2, rimworld, warriors rpg roblox before: 2015, POE 1, no country for old men clips, erwin humanity edit by @imnoweren ("did I contribute to humanity?"), 

Digital Woman - DOGCORE (full EP)Wiffi VtuberMinecraft | 20 WOODEN PUZZLES! (Minecraft Puzzle Map)
Logdotzip

planet 51, mandarin marvel what if, rovermyths, judge holden edits, shadovis rpg, Legends Of Lucky Irish RPG, Company tycoon, teaful library (before it was renamed to tearose library), baseball huh al jokes (May 3), mineski dota 2, philippines og league of legends, the cake is a lie roblox before:2015, snowpiercer willy wonka, ao oni, pvz 3, i like me better when i'm with you—@hithisisdaisy's "Quick Way to Prevent Ponytail Drooping" to help me visualize for Delilah, interest in Sam of Sam letter to test out a unique esoteric writing style (May 22), curiosity toward others' attraction to Tadano and Luffy with sleepy eyes, haven't found medieval "hawking profess" (search query) Google Books book yet (might be "Bert's treatise of hawks and hawking"), 

@hithisisdaisy's "Quick Way to Prevent Ponytail Drooping"What if the Mandarin wasn't fake?
'"I, I did that."Sleepy eye luffyLikely candidate of "hawking profess"

replayed happyland adventurers (which I called happylanders even back then as a child), interest in DND gray oozes for Sapper story (May 9), tornado alley, beepbot's Guardians of Glaewin, protect telamon from zombies, discovery of "ephemera" term (May 6), short interest in MC Forums user KioriBug, interest in Arbitrator of ROBLOX News, checked Wayback Machine for his Twitter profile, scrolled long through his Twitter feed and Shedletsky's as well, Take Care of Yourself, created League of Legends webpage in personal website (this website) with ranks, champs, and win rates in April 29, took brief re-interest in old 2006-2014 web comic HERO by Hwei, learned of goo.blog closure announcement (November), 

Boopbot's Guardians of Glaewin"Have you ever wondered what the economic value of an alliance with King Triton via Prince Eric's marriage to Ariel is?" — ShedletskyHero by Hwei | 1: the witch's houseWayback Machine snapshot of September 9 of Arbitrator's Twitter page, through which I scrolled'

created bookmark folder full of Wikipedia article links to old Christian films in Firefox, 13.3MB and 75 images, kingdom with 700+ names of people that I have known throughout my life, 2015, 2016 Teresa convo review and brief re-contact as a result, retrieved and downloaded never-before-seen photos sent (particularly mine, since I tended to send photos regularly then) in GCs with her and other former friends from then, reviewed late 2020, Jan 2021 Discord convo with Sophia (Milahtis) as well, I thought inciting incident was 2018, but it was 2017 based on Messenger message evidence (April 28), death of cat "Georgie" around April 28, 137GB of screenshots, online visual self-archetyping branding, ghosts of Roblox players like B34stKing, the Tumblr show-don't-tell sensory list of phrases (April 30), Punisher's fridge realization moment, greeting eldest half-brother a day late, everyone site, May 3 proclamation of defeat against objective conventional sensory prose (the "Patch dog-like creature" passage) before June 5 drastically changed things, Leonard Shelby's note-taking, narrating gibberish exercise, entire day online super-review (May 4), saw recent news (June) of lightnovelpub finally shutting down, grandmother's birthday travel dated thought log (met older half-sister there after many months), 

An image close to what I remember being the profile picture icon of Sophia (Milahtis). The character is Mimosa Vermillion from Black CloverRoblox Winter Games 2014: The Winter Games LodgeAn altered photo taken while heading to my grandmother's birthdaythe Tumblr show-don't-tell sensory list of phrases"fridge moment"

John Canadian and Adamson's isekai, r/whenthe palimpsest, Pinterest image reference list, sword ice mage fiction passage, writing like a child, "companion world" (May 7), cousin re-contact, camp vs. 7000 words a day, random things, ideas, and prompts, 670,000 words of first and current longest journal file and only 35% was redacted for being personal, foggy mountainous forest background, year phases FB bio (May 16)—tried Midjourney again to make a book cover for the Sapper story after my dad got it but reverted to ChatGPT's image creator because I found it much more polished—a river of people, a sea of faces—the ongoing undocumented 99% of lived experience, "We are gonna be OK, You can rest now.", elimination note, one former classmate graduating from med school, another joining Jiu-Jitsu competition (May 19), town-building, being the House of Leaves guy according to BedivereTheMad's "16 MORE Harsh Truths..." r/royalroad Reddit Post, internalized misandry fiction passage, 

foggy mountainous forest background

Peter novel's pre-existing sensoriness, Youtube videos of Roblox girl player from 10 to 11 years ago and nostalgia, video systematizing workflow, aircon bill, sudden intense but brief attraction to responding user, unfinished listing of GB used of Google accounts, 3 years ago in real-life just like yesterday, while 3 years ago in writing feels like a very long time—understanding the memes, the Yout Name problem, and haven for bookworms—grandmother's useful oral history, 94 kilos at 5'4 (May 23), long back-and-forth fort discussion, inherently revolutionary national identity, callousness and cruelty line, giving up on RR (May 27), heat = cognitive impairment and difficulty being creative, 

June 2 agency in self-dissolution passage, solved Rubix cube before connection, "you're sheltered from the storm", a 100,000-word analytical text, "STOP! NOW, DO TEN PUSH-UPS OF CONCISION!", healing: from "streamlined" to "a style among styles", "The worst part is that they're not bad memories.", commonplacing vs. integrated moving functions, the dimensional grotto in the middle of a rainforest, goodbye old car (June 5, 50,000 pesos for scraps, depreciated, 4000 per year, 300 monthly for parking, 3 or more years since new car), angel hair-like cocoa, environmental storytelling and the excruciating pain of the raging ocean as opposed to the idle automatic mind, 30,000 words is enough, changing computer desk, 

new foldable rectangular desk table (out of 4), going to move computer to it today!—have yet to use {{< q >}}, {{< /q >}}, {{< ai >}}, and {{< /ai >}}  on so many recent entries where I have to make sure to exclude certain passages that are not written by me from the total local Hugo journal website word count, which is why word count is "stuck" at 3.1 million words for the meantime, even if I am writing everyday—changed icons of folders to make quick access in windows explorer look much more appealing, using icons directly from John Smith Legacy Resource Pack for Minecraft. 

Changed folder icons in Windows to icons from John Smith Legacy Resource Pack for Minecraft